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I Dont Want to Get Hurt Again

Maybe I Just Ask For It?

By: justmeonline
Written on April 19th, 2012
When I was a lot younger I was so stupid and naive, I opened myself up to get hurt in a massive, massive way that basically stopped me from trusting, must have been for close to twenty years -- yes, I did say twenty; and it drained a lot out of my life. And it wasn't the only time either. One thing I've learned is to go slow, try to care less deeply but also not be so paranoid as to just shut people out. Like everyone else though, I'm still learning, though it's only natural to hope I don't get hurt again.
By: justmeonline
Age: 36-40 , Male
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  • papri
    papri

    I hope people don't hurt others..thats awful when they say or do something they don't realize the results...but it hurts a lot more than a wound..

    Just as your story...I have been sensitive from childhood, at my teens and even now at my age...but I have become more self conscious recently I feel I am learning to change a lil :)

    Apr 27, 2012
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    • justmeonline
      justmeonline

      I just have to accept the fact is people do, and toughen up. We're learning together, papri, you and I :)

      Apr 27, 2012
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  • bolletjie
    bolletjie

    I just read your story, and my heart is breaking for you! You must keep your head high and tell yourself, you deserve happiness! I am trying to tell myself that. You sound like a kind but fragile soul, and I hope you don't shut out the world completely. The world would be lucky to know you. Take care of yourself and your heart, it is worth it!

    Apr 20, 2012
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    • justmeonline
      justmeonline

      Thank you, that is very kind, I am doing just that; I thank you again and wish you well.

      Apr 20, 2012
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  • sierra33
    sierra33

    Too much rebooting is NOT fun! But I am glad you're diving in and doing a fresh start. That is such a healthy way to process and get past the past.... I totally admire you for doing it...It's hard but it'll be well worth it....

    Apr 19, 2012
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    • justmeonline
      justmeonline

      Yes, we'll soon get some good results I hope. Am ploughing through. Difficult, but hopefully well worth it my friend. Thank you for your kind encouragement :)

      Apr 19, 2012
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  • sierra33
    sierra33

    I think this might be the first time mentioning it....I hope the scare tissue is healing tho.. Complicated things always seem to be the hardest to get past....hugs and hugs...

    Apr 19, 2012
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    • justmeonline
      justmeonline

      Yes, I think so, finally. It's part of my fresh start thing I'm working on. Need to let go of a lot, and reboot, but hopefully not again and again; that can be annoying, as we know :)

      Apr 19, 2012
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  • sierra33
    sierra33

    Aww, I'm sooo sorry you went thru that. I do think taking things slow is the key to at least some of this.



    I know a lot of folks believe in "love at first sight" Not me....at least NOT...for me....Even with hubs...I felt LUST at first sight with him but it took me awhile to decide it was "love" I actually needed to live with him for almost 2 years before I was convinced!! I always tell him he is too skeptical but I might have a little of that same thing runnin thru me too!!



    It's good to not shut folks out too...Ya have to be careful in getting to know and trust them but the only way you can is to open up a little too them too.....

    Apr 19, 2012
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    • justmeonline
      justmeonline

      My situation was extremely complicated, and it might even be the first I've mentioned of it here. Very, very complicated and difficult. Ah well, we live and learn!

      Apr 19, 2012
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