Why I Dont Want To Get Married Again

I got married June 12th 2004 and my husband was killed August 20th 2004. It was an accidental death so I get a check from the state every month for the rest of my life or until i remarry. This sounds bad but i would rather have the money the rest of my life than take the chance of marrying someone and they die to and then i am screwed. I have two kids. what would you do?
lilbit22 lilbit22
22-25, F
Dec 13, 2006