But Why...

i really don't... and i can't. i know how much he has hurt me, cause me buckets of tears, the pain the agony inside... to just say it in words is such an understatement. but when he becomes sober again, i just wanna stay in his arms, in his love and in his heart. i know his love is different... it demands attention, a selfish kind. where i am the one who has to call him when he is mad and calls him again and again even he didn't want to talk. i know he wants to see my tears so that he knows that i love him... and he said, "it's your craziness that is keeping both of us together." he said why did i wait for so long to call him... i said cause you don't want me to make a scene and pressurized you. he wants it but doesn't want it. he loves it but doesn't really love it... there was a time i cried day and night... but now i only cry when it really hurts and i can't breathe. it's wrong but i don't know why i can't let him go...
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22-25, F
Jul 27, 2010