It's not so much growing old but the ailments that come with it. I don't want to slow down, don't want to lose control of my bowels or my bladder. Don't want to be unsteady on my feet or more susceptable to illness. I don't want to have someone else bath me or change me.....I don't want to lose my freedom. I know it's not like this for all old people but it just scares the hell out of me!