Not Who I Want To Be

I have felt hate for so long. I don't want to feel it any more. I am trying to forgive my family, to include the ***** donor. Some days that is very hard to do, but then again it's never exactly easy.
I have grown to hate society over the last few years and I don't want to any more. Hate is one of the reasons that I had such a hard time accepting myself for who I am.
Due to everything that I have been through at the hands of guys I had grown to hate them. I grew up listening to my mother tell me that everything wrong with the world was because of men. Even after I told my mother that I am a man she continued to say these things to me. Between this and what it was like growing up with her I have done everything that I can not to hate her.
I know that nothing good comes from hate. I know that hate has a way of eating you from the inside. I am tired of giving the people that have caused me harm power over me. I just want to stop hating. That's not who I want to be.
lyricaldemise lyricaldemise
41-45, T
Nov 28, 2012