I Don't Want To Have Sex. Ever.
I'm 23 years old and I've never had sex. The truth is, I've never even wanted to. Sometimes I feel like a freak because no one I know thinks this way. I figured it was get better with time and as I formed relationships with people, I'd feel closer to them and then the sexual urges would just come later. A while ago, i had a few brief encounters with some men (yes, I do know I like men) It never really got beyond some "touching" from both sides. Although it was pleasurable, I knew I didn't really want to continue that kind of stuff. Something about it just felt wrong. I dont' mean uncomfortable. I mean wrong. Embarassed about the way I feel, I just act like I wanted the relationship to continue on a romantic level, for all intents and purposes, I fabricate feelings that I don't have and tell any inquirers what I think a normal response would be. Recently, however, I told my best friend how I feel. She didn't seem too fazed but seemed more to feel sorry for me. Why she should feel sorry for me, I can't imagine. It's not like I'm wanting for something I just can't have. I'm just NOT wanting for something that most people want. I've felt for a long time (since about 15 years old) that I don't want to be married or have any children. I do have my own ways of getting pleasure and I'm more than ok with that, just as I am more than happy not to have a male companion. (BFF cannot understand this, as she wants a SO and kids more than anything else in the world right now.) I came on this sight looking for people who feel the same way I do. I don't want people to feel sorry for me or tell me that's it's just a phase becasue I know in my heart that it is not. I'd just like someone to say "Hey, I know what you're going throught because I've been there." I need to know if there are other people out there, so I know I'm not alone. Thanks.