Why People That Get Cancer Want To Live And Those That Want To Die Don't

Did you think your life went how you thought it would go? Did you think that those "life is good" t-shirts were for real?

Ugh, well welcome to the real world. 

I haven't done the things in life that I thought I would do. My life didn't go as planned. I'm turning fifty, my father died from suicide when I was 11, I filed for bankruptcy three years ago to clear $60k in debt, have two kids, a husband, a mortgage, two dogs and two cats, and been sued. I should feel lucky right?  Wow, I don't and guess why? I suppose because at this stage in my life, I would have been successful, happily married, and living in a place where I want to be.

But I'm not any of those things. 

I've found one freedom, I'm giving away many of my possessions. I found that I don't need much of my clothes, kitchen appliances, water fountains, jewelry, plants, books, furniture, nick-knacks and so on.

It cleanses the soul.

If I could, I would live in a recreational vehicle, instead of a house with a mortgage. And live without all the excess nonsense.

I still often ponder the question of why, if I had cancer (or some other illness), it would be a blessing. 

Why does god take the people that want to live or have promise?

And leave the rest of us that would rather pass to the beyond.

jaimeta jaimeta
1 Response May 24, 2012

I know how you feel?