I'm Really Confused

Part of my dream is in jeopardy. I love my boyfriend, I really do. The problem is that I don't think what I do is fair to him, he is a good person, it's just that I have a lot of hang ups that are starting to strain things a bit. I know that I can't give him what he wants, I've tried to break up with him twice, but I always go back, apologize and say that I made a mistake. It's like no matter how much I love him, I will always want what's best for him more and I feel that right now I'm not the best. Right now, I'm trying to get myself together because I know the end is coming in the next few days. I thought this was someone I would spend the rest of my life with, but it really doesn't look like it's going to happen. I really don't want to lose him, it's so hard to let him go.

TheWaysOfShelly TheWaysOfShelly
26-30, F
1 Response Jul 27, 2010

It's over, it happened this morning. I told myself back in October that it would be a bad idea to have a long distance relationship and I told him too, but I got sucked in anyway. I got caught up in all the attention and just got carried away. I knew this wasn't going to end well, I just knew it. And guess what it didn't, it was such a huge surprise, NOT!! No more tears, it's time to heal.