Part of my dream is in jeopardy. I love my boyfriend, I really do. The problem is that I don't think what I do is fair to him, he is a good person, it's just that I have a lot of hang ups that are starting to strain things a bit. I know that I can't give him what he wants, I've tried to break up with him twice, but I always go back, apologize and say that I made a mistake. It's like no matter how much I love him, I will always want what's best for him more and I feel that right now I'm not the best. Right now, I'm trying to get myself together because I know the end is coming in the next few days. I thought this was someone I would spend the rest of my life with, but it really doesn't look like it's going to happen. I really don't want to lose him, it's so hard to let him go.