I Don't Want to Lose Him
My boyfriend and I began our relationship on a completely wrong note.
I was infatuated with another boy whom we both hung out with, and had never really considered myself to be good enough for him (though I'd had a crush on him when I first met him). He really began taking an interest in me right when I was freaking out due to another friend of mine letting the boy I liked know that I liked him. That's when my boyfriend and I first began to really know each other. In addition to my liking this other boy, one of my boyfriend's friends(and who was mine for that matter) had a big crush on me(which I didn't know about). So with all this drama floating around you'd think it'd take forever for us to fully develop a relationship...yea I thought so too.
The very next week, after I'd gone to watch both him and the boy I'd liked before in a play of sleeping beauty, I found out that the guy I liked had a girlfriend three states away and that I could give a damn. My boyfriend and I kissed less than a week after we began to really get to know each other.
That weekend however, was when the **** really hit the fan. Most of our friends, and certainly our parents, were still unaware of our relationship. So thus instead of getting permission to check out (I go to boarding school and he's a day student) we decided to lie about where we were going and head to his house to watch jurassic park (instead of the local coffee shop). About halfway throught the movie his mom called and she was extremely pissed. (did I mention she's the school disciplinarian?) She had us get our ***** back on campus and I had to call my mom and tell her that not only did I lie, I also was alone with a boy at his house (which she severely dissapproved of). Fun times for her seeing as she'd never met him.
Somehow, we made it through my parents meeting him, and now they love him and the problem is..so do I.
We've been going out for One year and Three Months almost to the day (Oct. 19 2006) and he graduates this year. I'm so scared of him leaving. We spend almost everyday together, or at least see each other every day. I'm not ready for him to leave me, to go off and save the world, volunteer, and be all over the US without me. Maybe it's selfish but I wish he could at least wait until I can leave too. I have two more years here, to be reminded of him in everywhere that I go, and all the things I do, because they'll be the same places I went with and did things with him.
Why does finding someone you love mean you have to deal with the fears of losing them?
I was infatuated with another boy whom we both hung out with, and had never really considered myself to be good enough for him (though I'd had a crush on him when I first met him). He really began taking an interest in me right when I was freaking out due to another friend of mine letting the boy I liked know that I liked him. That's when my boyfriend and I first began to really know each other. In addition to my liking this other boy, one of my boyfriend's friends(and who was mine for that matter) had a big crush on me(which I didn't know about). So with all this drama floating around you'd think it'd take forever for us to fully develop a relationship...yea I thought so too.
The very next week, after I'd gone to watch both him and the boy I'd liked before in a play of sleeping beauty, I found out that the guy I liked had a girlfriend three states away and that I could give a damn. My boyfriend and I kissed less than a week after we began to really get to know each other.
That weekend however, was when the **** really hit the fan. Most of our friends, and certainly our parents, were still unaware of our relationship. So thus instead of getting permission to check out (I go to boarding school and he's a day student) we decided to lie about where we were going and head to his house to watch jurassic park (instead of the local coffee shop). About halfway throught the movie his mom called and she was extremely pissed. (did I mention she's the school disciplinarian?) She had us get our ***** back on campus and I had to call my mom and tell her that not only did I lie, I also was alone with a boy at his house (which she severely dissapproved of). Fun times for her seeing as she'd never met him.
Somehow, we made it through my parents meeting him, and now they love him and the problem is..so do I.
We've been going out for One year and Three Months almost to the day (Oct. 19 2006) and he graduates this year. I'm so scared of him leaving. We spend almost everyday together, or at least see each other every day. I'm not ready for him to leave me, to go off and save the world, volunteer, and be all over the US without me. Maybe it's selfish but I wish he could at least wait until I can leave too. I have two more years here, to be reminded of him in everywhere that I go, and all the things I do, because they'll be the same places I went with and did things with him.
Why does finding someone you love mean you have to deal with the fears of losing them?
By:
paintmeblue
Age:
18-21
,
Female
