I Don't Want to Lose Him
I met "G' June of 2006 at a club with some of our mutual friends. I liked him from the start, but he was dating one of our friends. So I settled on becoming just a friend. I never saw our friendship blossom like it did.
When I moved out-of-state, "G" helped me move, and even drove me. Not knowing that deep inside he wished I never would have left. A few short weeks after I moved, "G" left his girlfriend, and went back to his wife. We continued talking almost everyday, and e-mailed each other as much as possible. Through this, we got extreamly close, so he was the first person I called when I decided to come back home.
When I first came back, it was August 2006. I began dating a friend's cousin, and thought things were going good. Somewhere in the midst of things, things weent horribly wrong for me, and I ended up single. I moved in with my grandparents house, but spent a lot of time at my parents house. "G" would come visit, being as he knew my step-father very well.
Early November, I get a phone call from "G" at 2 am. He left his wife again. Could I talk? And of course, I was the one he turned to. The next day, he called me and asked me if I wanted to go grab a bite to eat with him. We did, and pretty much have been inseperable since then.
But he is the twist. He is going through a divorce. There is a small child involved. "G" and I have been engauged since early December. His "wife" (the divorce isn't final yet) knows nothing about me. Does not know I exist, much less that "G" and I live together.
HE talks to her on the phone quite frequently. I understand the reasoning behind it. They have a child together. BUt how are you going to sit there and tell her you love her in front of me? Playing head games with her or not, that's not something you want to say in front of the one you live with. He talks to her for hours when I am at work, and sees her every other Saturday for visitation with his son.
I am so scared she is going to convince him they need to work things out, just like she did when he was with my (ex) friend. Although that situation was different, I still cannot help but wonder all the time if I am goign to loose him. I know we rushed into this relationship a little fast. BUt we both needed to get out of living with family, and are doing suprisingly well together.
Except for the ex-wife problem. I mean, yeah, she will always be in his life. They have a son. But her not knowing about me bothers me, because when she finds out, there will be ten kinds of hell to pay. NOt to mention he is ALWAYS talking to her. I don't know what to do anymore. Anyone have some advice???
