Stupid Situation

This is stupid. There is this guy. And I like him, a lot. Too much! I don't know if he likes me back, we haven't had that conversation. But I go crazy when I can't talk to him for a few days, and when I think about the fact that in a few short months this whole thing will be over because he'll be going up north to college and I'll be going down south. I might never talk to him again. Or it might continue online, idk...

But the paintful thing in all of this is that I know that he doesn't treat me the way he ought to. I know that he cares very little about me, that even though I tell him about every little thing he doesn't consider me a close friend, that he won't even talk to me in person...

But even with all of this, I don't want to lose him. I put up with all of it because for some reason I love him. I hate it, I hate it, but I can't move on. I'm stuck with this toxic thing because it is the only thing that keeps me sane. He is my everything, I'm lost without him.

:/

hnah1313 hnah1313
18-21
1 Response Feb 13, 2009

You deserve better.<br />
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Never settle for less than being treated like a queen.