Scared.

His name's Anthony. We were really young when we met. He was 14 and I was 13. We went out for a year and three months. He was my best friend. My first love. Six months after we broke up, we started talking again. Saying I was shocked would be an understatement. He stopped talking to me again after New Year's. Four months went by before we talked and he left again. I got really sick in late July, my birthday had just passed. We only talked for one night. Eventually, my disappointment grew into anger, nearly hatred. After coming back from a trip to North Carolina, his best friend started messaging me. He tried to convince me to text Anthony, make the first move. I was too apprehensive though. The next day, he tried again. Finally, a couple days went by until I caved in and texted him. He came to visit for Christmas break. We spent New Years eve together. I was in complete bliss the whole day. We've been talking ever since November. Now, he hasn't been answering my calls or finding excuses to just avoid me completely. He's been acting strange, but I know that I can't go through this heartbreaking cycle anymore. I don't want him to go, but if he wants to be out of my life, I don't want him to come back again...
BrokenLullaby BrokenLullaby
18-21, F
Jul 25, 2010