WIll Not....

I don't like letting people see me cry. I don't like feeling THAT vounerable because some of the people who call themselves y friends will try to take advantage of that. And for the ones who don't I really don't like putting my problems onto them when I know that they have problems of their own. One of my friends once described me as strong on the outside but fragile on the inside and she was right. I try not to show it when I'm in pain or when I just want to cry. But sometimes it just gets to be too much. Especially this year at my high school, I just can't seem to cope with everything. I mean they way my school is set up most of the Junior's take ALL of their difficult classes this year and I have a full schedual, I'm taking Chemistry, Student Government, Trig, Advanced Placement U.S. History, Anatomy, I'm the editor of the Year book and I'm also taking English. I('m part of the Honor society so I CANNOT fail any of my classes. I have to take my SAT's this year and I have the AP exam coming up. I'm freaking out about which college I want to go to, I recently went through a bad break up, there have been alot of problems with my friends and I'm trying to help a couple of my REAL friends through some hard times because I'm the only one they can turn to, and trying to be strong through all of that is just so HARD, and I don't want anyone to see that I'm cracking, but I slip once or twice and I regret it. This has robably been the worst year ever at my high school and I cannot wait to get AWAY.

WanderingWiccan WanderingWiccan
18-21, F
1 Response Mar 8, 2009

I was the editor of my high school yearbook also. and also had many other clubs and org. I know that if I can do it you can. : ) Friends come and go. And you will find that perfect someone. Just last year I was in your shoes and now I have a baby on the way and a good man and I am still in college that I wanted to go to (woot woot sam). My point, you will get away soon and start a great life before you know it. You will be just fine, your year is almost over. Keep up the good work.