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I used to drink waaay too much for my own good. I never have any memory of anything that happened when I drink. I have long conversations with someone about important things, and have no clue I even saw that person that night. I get way too aggressive when I drink, and usually end up punching some wall till my knuckles bleed over something stupid.
The scariest thing of all is when I don't remember ever coming home, and I drove.
The turning point came when I attended a house party one of my oldest friends hosted. I got horribly drunk, and got in to an arguement with the host. We almost got in to a fist fight, because I couldn't control myself becuse of the alcohol. I was rude to his girlfreind, and everyone there, and I stormed out, got in my car, and drove home in that condition. I couldn't remember any of it. It took a phone call from another person who was at the party for me to find out that I even did anything wrong at all! When I wanted to go out later that day, I realized that I had had an accident with my car on my way home. I must have driven up a pavement, because the wheel of my car was messed up. It ended up costing me a butt load of money, not to mention the friendship of someone who I have known for about 15 years.
Since then I've learned self control, and only have a few beers a night, and soft drinks in between. It works perfectly, and my life is better because of that decision. Alcohol is the root of all evil, and it should not be taken lightly.
TCat TCat
26-30, M
1 Response Jun 10, 2007

Maybe, but maybe if folks used some of would not be...Try this on for size...Remember to treat others the way you wish to be treated. THEN.... Start practicing some real deep self-Love. ( From the inside out) You have the Breath of Life and Love inside you - like we all do. Remember to Love, Protect and Share it with & for yourself & others. Also do the same for the Temple it resides in..Tour Body... Once you can do this the universe will forgive your transgressions. Your life will take on better choices. Your Creator has things in control more than you think.<br />
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LOVE & HUGS, livingwell <br />
with True Love for Yourself...