Sometimes I Just Think About It Too Much

I'm only 19, but I feel like I've wasted half my life away already. People will say "you're still young," but whose to say I won't keep wasting away? I know, it's up to me to change. To do something about it. But that's easier said than done. And I mean that; it really is.

I've accomplished so little. I don't know what I want half the time though-- that's the problem.

On this site, I keep hearing stories about people who are older than me, and still unsatisfied with life, and not achieving what they want. Those stories terrify me. I'm worried that I'll be that in no time; nothing but nostalgic, and wondering where the years went.

I don't only worry about becoming a huge failure, but of... well, aging. I just have this feeling that I'll age really bad. Maybe it's nothing but my own paranoia, but sometimes I'll look at myself today and not like a lot of things. That's normal though, I guess. But arrgh!

I just have to stop thinking about it all.

FateCantDecide FateCantDecide
22-25, F
2 Responses Mar 12, 2009

i feel ya, girl

I would say that aging is a bit bothersome, but it cannot be stopped. Therefore try not to worry too much about it.<br />
Right now I would suggest a few things:<br />
Excercise, drink lots of water, do not smoke, & try hard not to suffer too much stress.<br />
And as well, please get an education. I did not, & though I am fortunate to be working at all, that feeling of "I could have been more" rears it's ugly head every so often.