Its been thirteen years since she broke it off, we had met in 1995 and been together for a year and a half, we had been serious, I loved her dearly and since I had to leave for a while she had been expecting a marriage proposal that never came. She was very angry about this, broke the ties and when we did eventually speak she was defiant and closed, my heart was broken. The love of my life had gone, and I was unable to patch things up, I was devastated. She found someone else and made sure I saw it. I saw her a couple of years later by chance and now I was the angry one, I had gone from melancholy and despair to anger for the hurt she inflicted on me. She wanted to talk but I did not. She left and we'll never know. Enduring love? Every day these last thirteen years without at least one thought of her. I had had dreams of her in the first years which left me warm and fuzzy and I would wake up sad that it was only a dream. As the years went by the dreams started to change, now whenever I dream about her its like we are still a couple and shes been cheating on me, she sometimes mocks me. at times its so intense I wake up in a cold sweat and get upset, sometimes for days. I have similar dreams every few months. Does anyone have a clue what all this means, its obvious I still have strong feelings for her even after all this time and I havent been in another relationship since. I'm sorry for not marrying her, and for the mistakes I made I would like to tell her I'm sorry. . What are the dreams telling me. What can I do?