Just One More

it seems like i can't wait for friday to roll around so i can have an excuse to have a drink. i take certain medications that shouldn't be mixed with alcohol but i drink anyway. i love the feeling of being buzzed. i'm more talkative, more social, just more fun. i know that sounds stupid, because i know you don't have to drink to have fun but everything just seems more fun after a few. i love to dance and after a few that's better.  i chat people up better after a few. it all sounds ridiculously useless i know that and i always think things are more boring if i don't drink. i wish i didnt think like that. don't get me wrong i don't sit and pine for a drink every day but on the weekends i like to have a few.... and i never learn cause i can't drink that much anyway cuz then i feel gross and the next day is a writeoff for me. 
prettyinpink prettyinpink
46-50, F
2 Responses Mar 20, 2007

Hi,<br />
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Me again he he. U know if I didn't know better I could swear it was I who wrote this. <br />
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1st I want to say please don't be too hard on yourself. It's nice to be able to let go. It's good to have a drink, relax & have fun.<br />
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It's something we turn to for comfort. It's the overdoing it that gets us in trouble & wreaks havoc on our health. Those hangovers are brutal.<br />
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Like you, I take medications that don't mix with alcohol. Alcohol is a depressant. Very bad combination.<br />
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I was really bad for a long time. I did things, said things that I wouldn't normally do because of the alcohol, but mostly because of the mix! I finally had enough & I tried to quit. A lot of my drinkin' buddies didn't want me to quit because I wasn't as much fun to be around. It was so tough. I finally did quit for a long time. I also had to quit my buddies for a long while. It was a very lonely time. I was all alone. It seems that everyone drinks. I'm proud to say I made it. I came out of it stronger & healthier, but it was tough. It's a much healthier life now. I actually see things differently in a good way now that I don't use the alcohol to escape & depend on.<br />
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I want you to know that we have to accept ourselves the way we are. The good, the bad & the ugly. All the while trying to accentuate our positives! Working towards what we want & away from what we don't want. <br />
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We all struggle. You are not alone!

sounds like you have a good tab on it.<br />
it is just the way you described, 4me.<br />
i wouldn't worry... if it cuases you to lose friends and work,, then yes,, but other than that... sounds like a good chat...