A New Beginning Or An Ultimate End?

The harsh realities has kicked in, and I am overwhelmed with emotion. For now, this is my only outlet.

It's the beginning of the end of my college career. For three years, I failed to realize that college wasn't for me. Like everyone, I was indoctrinated into the whole "college = success" scheme. I excelled in high school, scored high marks in SATs and the such, and got myself into a prestigious university without a second thought. Now that I was in, it slowly spiraled into a living nightmare.

I started off my EE studies strong, still having that college success mentality strong in my mind. However, as the semesters went on, I slowly fell behind; I couldn't keep up with the growing competition and the weed-out classes. It took me a while to realize EE and the whole scheme of studying was not for me.

I was always good with my hands; (basic) woodworking, stop-motion animating, robotics. drawing, etc. I never got to do anything hands-on in class. All I did in these three years was sit somewhere and "read" a book, and I felt useless and unproductive. I needed to do something tangible, I needed to MAKE something!

The mentality is that drop-outs are the ultimate loosers and are destined to a life of pain and misery. Is this my ultimate fate? Is there no more hope? My parents already disown me, and I don't know who to turn to. If this is my fate, I might as well commit suicide.

So now, I am lost. I still don't know what to do with myself after all this time. Perhaps I can go to a trade school. I'm still into robotics, so perhaps I can take some more programming courses. Or perhaps I can chase a long-forgotten dream of being a pilot. For now, I don't know. I guess I can spend the last remaining days in college thinking this through.

Thank you for your time.
FallenNinja FallenNinja
18-21, M
4 Responses Jan 12, 2013

You seem really smart and talented. If you are good with your hands, then maybe trade school would be the right fit. My family disowned me for a while but they have finally seen the light. Best of luck to you sir.

SAME SITUATION!!!!! man i was damned and my mother(my only parent alive) disowned me but i know 'nothing lasts forever' . i was also good in my pre-university years, actually very good but univeersity wasnt for me, lectures were really boring, i failed to hand in my course work on time. i didnt know what was wrong with me, untill i quit..... now i earn some small money. But never commit suicide.

Today i got kicked out of college ... no don't commit suicide...it is not worth it.. ur parents disowned u !!! damn.. i still havent told my parents and i'll be treated like **** when i do that's why i thought of eloping to any ******* where but home ... atleast ur good at something u mentioned few stuff ur good at then go for it

Hey find what works for you and makes you happy, if you find something you love there is always a way to make it work!