Where Does One Go From Here?

I stopped going to school because I kept ******* up.
I started college in fall 2003, and left that school (a Catholic women's college) after the end of the spring semester because I hated it. It made me depressed, and I went from a 3.5 GPA (fall) to a 2.0 (spring).
The following fall I attended another school, one I loved. And ****** up again. I was having problems with depression, and at the end of the semester I had incompletes for 3 of my 5 classes. As I was seeking help, going to counseling and taking meds, I had every intention of returning and making up those classes. I had a setback after ending up in the hospital, and my mother determined I shouldn't go to an out of state school since I was so mentally ill. I gave up on the dream school. They promptly mailed my academic dismissal.
For two years after that, I've tried two community colleges to no avail. I either stopped attending classes or dropped them all after starting. I figured that maybe I was ******* up on purpose--sort of unconsciously acting out because I screwed up something I really wanted.
I'm almost 24, and most people I graduated high school with are finished school and finding important jobs. That's kind of depressing to me.
But I guess my heart is not in it right now. Maybe someday, a few years from now, I can try again.
brokenxtooxoften brokenxtooxoften
22-25, F
1 Response Aug 18, 2007

I didn't even start my tertiary education until I was twice your age. Don't sweat it. Find a legal way to make a living and then find something you are interested in doing. The rest will follow in good time.<br />
One tip I would offer. Get online and look up what Calvin Coolidge said about Persistence. Print it off and nail it up where you can see it every day. It's SO true it hurts. At this time of your life and at this point in history, the world is your oyster. (I hope you like seafood) Now quit wasting your time on something that will work itself out when the time is right.