...Not really. In fact, there isn't anything further from the truth. I dropped out because I see no future in my life. My life is going nowhere. I'm in limbo right now; between going on living with no goal in sight or dropping dead...seriously. I'll just drink myself silly, pass out in the dark, freezing night and hopefully not wake up the next day. I feel so alone right now. I've never really had any friends and hell, I've never been close to a connection in my life. My parents don't even know the real reason why I dropped out and boy do I not plan on telling them. I just couldn't wake up the next day. I just couldn't find any reason to get up and do the things that would normally keep me occupied during the day. Nothing really seemed worth it. Now, I don't want any sympathy. I don't want to sulk and give up. I just want a goal. A purpose. I don't really believe in God (well, not the kind that my parents invision). I don't believe that I have to wait and stare into the sky for a divine purpose. I don't believe in that. I believe that you have to formulate your own plot and work through your own self-designed purpose, but I don't know what I can do. I just wish I wasn't so lonely. I don't really know where to go. I just want to simplify my life at the moment. I just want to get a night job, make a few bucks for the future and hopefully I'll stumble upon something. Right now, I just feel like I'm wasting resources; food, water, paper, air!
Oh yeah, and I'm not sure who to talk to. Who do I talk to about stuff like this. Everyone's at school and I'm stuck at my parents' place. Who do I talk to about this stuff without making the other person uncomfortable, or myself for that matter?