your not a cow, you look beautiful! l wear a women size 20 bottoms, mens pants don't fit me correctly and usually wear amens size medium top. I weigh 215 lbs now and want to wigh 350! I need to be a 100 lbs overwight to actually feel fat and happy! don't hate yourself for who you are, just no what you want out of life, and do what you want not what your peers want! my girlfriend weighs 400lbs and is a plus size 34 and loves being fat just like me! so if you like being fat get fat and love yourself for who you are and stop going back and forth