Friendships Ending

I have reacently ended a lot of my friendships due to they are continuing in a way of life I no longer fit in. It has been hard and a lot of tears along the way.My closest friendship ended 9 years ago when she died. I have trust issues as it is,so I know it's going to be hard to start another circle of healthier friends,but i know it can be done.
Tigress Tigress
51-55, F
4 Responses Jul 19, 2007

I Had A Best Friend, She Is Not Dead She Is Alive, But 4 Some Reason She Wants Nothing to Do With Me Any More Because She Says That If I Can't Trust Her She Shouldn't Trust Me Either... It All Started When Today After My 7th Period Class I Was Going To Ask My Teacher A Question, I Told Everyone To Leave Except My Best Friends, I Told My ex- Best Friend To Leave to For A Reason Because I Didn't Want Her To Tell Her Other "friend" What I Was About To Ask! I Asked My Teacher If She Thought Maria's Other Friend Was Annoying And She Said IDRK. So We Left Because the Busses Were About to Leave, Later I Told Maria That I Wanted To Go To Her House ANd She Said If You Want To Come Because Your Bored Feel Free Not To Come Because She Said That She Didn't Want To Be Ignored And She Wanted All Of Us To At Least Pay Attention to her And I Said Yeah Sure, But Then I Told My cousin to Ask Her IF i could go and my cousin told me that maria said no because TO HER she Feels Like Im Just Using Her, I Said No That I Just Needed To Ask My teacher A Question... SHE said Yeah Sure Whatever I Can't Trust You Because U Can't Trust Me So This Friendship is Over... I CRIED 4 HOURS and tommorw I really Would Want To Talk To Her About It But Im Affraid She Gunnna Ignore Me So Might As Well Not...

I Had A Best Friend, She Is Not Dead She Is Alive, But 4 Some Reason She Wants Nothing to Do With Me Any More Because She Says That If I Can't Trust Her She Shouldn't Trust Me Either... It All Started When Today After My 7th Period Class I Was Going To Ask My Teacher A Question, I Told Everyone To Leave Except My Best Friends, I Told My ex- Best Friend To Leave to For A Reason Because I Didn't Want Her To Tell Her Other "friend" What I Was About To Ask! I Asked My Teacher If She Thought Maria's Other Friend Was Annoying And She Said IDRK. So We Left Because the Busses Were About to Leave, Later I Told Maria That I Wanted To Go To Her House ANd She Said If You Want To Come Because Your Bored Feel Free Not To Come Because She Said That She Didn't Want To Be Ignored And She Wanted All Of Us To At Least Pay Attention to her And I Said Yeah Sure, But Then I Told My cousin to Ask Her IF i could go and my cousin told me that maria said no because TO HER she Feels Like Im Just Using Her, I Said No That I Just Needed To Ask My teacher A Question... SHE said Yeah Sure Whatever I Can't Trust You Because U Can't Trust Me So This Friendship is Over... I CRIED 4 HOURS and tommorw I really Would Want To Talk To Her About It But Im Affraid She Gunnna Ignore Me So Might As Well Not...

i ended a friendship for that reason too..... i realized that i have nothing in common with them anymore... i had nothing to talk about with them, nothing to do. first i was crying and feeling really blue. but now i feel that i made the right decision.

What a wonderful new beginning. Yes, it is sad but so beautiful. To end a friendship is very hard on yourself, your friend, and friends and family members around us. I had trust issues after I experienced infidelity in my marriage .... I had a slow and very soulful healing process, and through all of this, I discovered myself. What else can I ask for. Now, I know who I am, I love again, I trust again. And the best is that I know that the trust can be broken again, but I will survive, and I will find happiness again. And, I will still be me ...<br />
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Be well, be patient and love yourself