I hate being close to someone. When i get close to someone i get this feeling that i don't want to lose them, but the truth is in the end, everyone leaves. Whether its because of moving away, school, or they get new buddies to hang with, the end result is the same. I don't know how to explain the feeling. Its not necessarily feels bad or sad, it's just straight up painful and empty at the same time. I'd rather be alone and feel lonely than getting close to someone only to get hurt in the end. I generally act cold, sarcastic, and blunt to most of my peers so they could stay the hell away from me. But i can't help myself getting close to some people. Why does it hurt so much to actually care for someone?
EthanNail EthanNail
18-21, M
Aug 15, 2014