Helping Others Has Helped Me Tremendously

I just love helping others. There is only so much that I can do outside of EP because I just have so much going on. My wife's health stinks and the doctors can't figure out why. She has bad skeletal and joint pain. So that leaves just about everything on me to do from taking care of my kids to taking care of the house both inside and out. I have two jobs neither of which I am succeeding at yet since we are lucky to have enough food on the table. Thank the God and Goddess that my father is our landlord or we would be really screwed. Though he is keeping a tab. Before anyone gets silly on me I am fully aware that there are people out there who have it worse and I am very greatful we dont have to count ourselves among the even worse off. It just gets overwhelming at times especially when you have to watch your partner going through constant unyielding pain. At its worst times imagine a toothache all over your body. In addition to all this I am home schooling my youngest daughter. Oh i also forgot to mention on top of all that I am transgender and have to keep it quiet from extended family (parents and sisters) who all life on the same property with us but in different houses.

I dont have time for much face to face socializing so EP has been perfect for me. Whenever I have a few minutes I can sign on and be totally and completely me. I can be the feminine woman that my spirit says I am. I can let out all the love my God and Goddess keep me filled with so i can pass on Their positive energy. It feels so wonderful to get someone who is having a bad say to genuinely smile and ultimately feel better about there day and hopefully themselves. Thank you to all my friends who have I have come to know and will know in the future. Know your smiles and happiness that I have been able to bring you has brought me such a comfort that life no longer seems so overwhelming.
Aiyana77 Aiyana77
36-40, T
2 Responses Dec 2, 2012

That's sweet, Aiyana ... and I wish you, your wife and the rest of your family the best through this tough time in your lifes.

Good for you gurl. I am so glad to hear you are comming out of the dark plac e you were in. It is so nice to be out and free to be yourself isn't it. Wish I could be with you for a day. I know we culd find some nice things to do together.