Being of Service to Others


I can’t say I really enjoy helping others. I have limited time and free time something I am very selfish with;  but helping others is something I need to do and this looks like best place to post my story.

My thoughts this morning, as always, how did I get into this mess and what I am doing to fix it. I realized I am spending far too much time living in the problem, instead of the solution. The past couple of years have been emotionally brutal; and there is only one person to blame for this. Me!

I should have known better, but I always looked the other way. I was slowly entrapped with the illusions I sold myself. That illusion is shattered. The reality is not so pretty. But I do have hope. I have been here before (and you think I would have learned then), and I have the tools to fix what is broken.

As difficult as this can be, I need to continue to get out of myself (my mind), rededicate myself to what is important to me, and be of service to those who need help. I read so many stories on EP, many of them remind me of myself from years ago (I suffered from clinical depression, GAD, Social Anxiety Disorder, etc etc) and I was able to get better. Its only when I lapse into old behaviors do I stumble. I want to reach out and help them help themselves; I want to do this freely of myself, expecting nothing in return. I am not perfect. I have plenty of faults.  I have some big issues that I am dealing with myself, but I see they are quite small in relation to the suffering of others. I know from my own experience that connecting with others with whom I share a common peril, is one the greatest gifts I have ever received.

I am not a religious person. But I reminded often of my favorite prayer, The Prayer of St Francis of Assisi. I think it says it all.


Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace;

where there is hatred, let me sow love;

where there is injury, pardon;

where there is doubt, faith;

where there is despair, hope;

where there is darkness, light;

and where there is sadness, joy.

O Divine Master,

grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;

to be understood, as to understand;

to be loved, as to love;

for it is in giving that we receive,

it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,

and it is in dying that we are born to Eternal Life.


Smokeseek Smokeseek
36-40, M
4 Responses Oct 28, 2008

Hello Smokeseek,<br />
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That prayer is one of my favorites. Have you heard it in its musical form? So very beautiful.<br />
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I would love to know more about being a liberal socialist. I think I may have some of it coursing through my veins!<br />
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Also, what is the difference between a vegan and a vegetarian?<br />
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That is a beautiful prayer--it speaks volumes!

You know, it feels good to know you this way. Smokey you have a good, kind heart. You know your current state and your desired state, you also know what steps MUST be taken to get there. Soon I know will hear great things from you. And this will have part two...."I'm currently helping others"...Good for you.

I like that prayer too.