Chance To Arrange For My Humiliation

Wow. Does the memory and her knowing what you look like hard keep you turned on?

it does . . . and there have been a couple occasions where I have run into her at the market and the gasoline filling station. (she never lets on, but I can see in her smile that she has the power)

I have been working for something like that to happen to me. I've done some things to place myself in a situation where I'd be seen in front of my girlfriend as being not hung, and her knowing it, and another woman there having the power, as you put it, over me - and in front of my girl. It's a fantastic turn on.

I finally, after 9 months afraid to talk to her about it, got her to say during our foreplay, how her ex was bigger and better than I was, and describe in detail how he made love to her. She's amazed at how hard it gets me.

But what I haven't been able to arrange yet is that moment you have finally got - the "running into your humiliator" situation. I have the power to do it, because I have the e-mail address of the two women who saw me at the nude beach with my girl, while they were with their boyfriends, and definitely smirked as they walked away after checking out my small hang.

What you wrote about, the market and filling station, was what I got from this, posted her at EP (that is, it's not mine), and something I badly want:

Eric began his SPH not as a fetish, but as the "victim" of genuine humiliation related to his size. He didn't puruse it, and in fact worked hard during the time before I knew him to not be in a situation where he'd be naked and perhaps judged.

He had always played baseball, and when you're young, your physical exam is done only by a male doctor, and at a clinic and very simple and being able to stay more or less dressed. But when you get older, and move into steps leading to pro baseball, it's more serious.

Eric used to live and play baseball in a medium sized city in the U.S. This city had no major league team of any kind, so the club he was on was just under minor league, and watching a game cost $2, and all of the players minor celebs. Very minor, but definately known by a lot of people. These players are all hoping to be called up to a genuine minor league team, which in turn is where you are, hoping you get called up by an MLB team that is your sponsor.

He had his annual physical, and for the first time ever, he got a female doctor for his exam. (These teams associations contract out the physical exams, and you really don't know who will be your exam provider or doctor, etc.) He said he was very nervous. He would have been 20 or 21, and kinda known in the city. He didn't recognize either the doctor or nurse, but was still paranoind they would require him to be naked, and check him out fully.

To skip a lot of stuff and not draw this out, that's exactly what happened. While he was on the table he was palpatated, which is normal, and in doing this, his shorts were pulled below his entire lower torso, entirely exposing his fully naked body, from his head to his knees, to her and the nurse, who was also definately looking at his penis and scrotum. She had him rotate on his side, and used the moment to have the nurse fully remove his boxers, leaving him naked on the table. He had to get off of it, go through a coughing routine, and standing, an examination of his body with his arms at his sides.

Mentally, he said it was the worst moment of his life, and his worst fear come true. A complete, detailed view of his penis.

Later, when the exam was over, he walked back to the nurse's station to ask why the eye exam portion of his document hadn't been signed by them. Their backs were turned to him, looking at the station, and he stopped as he heard the nurse say something like, "Wow. I didn't expect we'd get to see Eric Xxxxx naked." The doctor said, "Well, what there was to see of him anyway."

He couldn't believe it. The doctor had made a joke about his size to the nurse, and she made a laughing reaction. His worst fears became even worse: being judged as having a small penis and by women who might tell it to others.

He crept backward and left. Half a year later he ran into the nurse at a market, and her too wide a smile reaction implied she defiantely memorized his manhood, or non-manhood if you want to put it that way.

He's pretty convinced some of the women in the city knew all there was to know about him. It does make sense. I know it's possible it was gossiped about. It's humiliating for him, but it turns me on.

One more comment about this:

Eric didn't realize it, and I had to explain it to him, that one of the best parts about what happened to him was his silence. Sometimes guys will make a stupid remark about what's happening to them. His just standing there and not able to speak made it 20 times better for the women involved. You get to soak in a guy's terror and he has to deal with the complete defeat. His looking down at his pretty tiny package, and the two women seeing his doing so, is SO incredibly hot!!!

liltimmy3x,
What is it like to look into her eyes and see her humiliating you with her smile? You chose a postal empoyee, which means she's always going to be somewhere in your area. That was brilliant on your part.