The Crying Lone Wolf

i belive must of the people that are lonely now used to enjoy solitude and now they start to hate been alone all the time, well at least that's my case.

i was lonely at school, everybody consider me a freak and i don't give a crap, that was three years ago now, i'm not shy, i have confidence and enjoy company but when i stay alone altrough i enjoy solitude i start to wonder... is this going to be like this forever.

then i realize tha i hate loneliness, i tried to have a girlfriend, i couldn't, apparently i don't deserve that, i have friends, but they will sure get married at any time so loneliness is an inminent danger on my life.

i don't want lonliness but i want to have my times, does that make me a bad boyfriend? is that the reason i'm single? should i be with my friends more time?

lost54 lost54
18-21, M
1 Response Dec 4, 2012

Hi! I feel the same way. I used to enjoy just sitting in my room, either reading, listening to music, not saying a word. But, now I'm starting to hate everything about it. And I am absolutely terrified for the rest of my life. Will it be like this? I don't want it it to. Sometimes, it helps me to imagine the future me. With a partner, friends, and smiling. I don't smile as much as I used to. So, try to just picture your future self smiling it up with your soon-to-be love, because you can have whatever you want if you try hard enough. You will get there, the only thing holding you back are the wrong people. You will find the one. Keep smiling friend :)

well... is kinda hard to me to see my self happy on the future because i already have my future image, and image that came to me on a nightmare: me, alone, getting old, full of doudts about my lonliness and crying because of that.

i thank you for the advice but it might not help me, however i'll keep it in my mind