A Supernatural Taco Tuesday For Me!

Hello my fellow Epeeps!

I have TRIED to express to YOU that "Taco Tuesday" is NOT just about tacos!!! YES! I love tacos and I do have them on Tuesday, and at times, every other day of the week too! SMILE!!! Anyway this past Taco Tuesday (February 9, 2010) was a SUPERNATURAL day for me! I'm sorry that I can NOT make this a short read! If YOU know anything about what I experienced, PLEASE share your thoughts with me; you can share them here, scribble on my white board or personal message me, the choice is YOURS!

What happened was......

 A few days ago when I was sitting here at the computer and listening to music, it was like a wave of some sort hit me. I kept chatting with people here in the Merry Little Land of EP and I felt as though I had already had all of the talks before! I'd mention deja vu to a few of my Epeeps and a few of us became really close.

My friend, LJ came over on Monday, so I didn't hang out in the Merry Little Land of EP, until late Monday night; I'd fallen asleep after LJ left and I didn't wake up 'til after 10 p.m. I started my "Chill" music in YouTube and came to the Merry Little Land of EP! The minute I got here, it was deja vu all over again! I'd done ALL of this before! I was chatting with people about various things (responding to personal message after personal message ~ that's for those of you who don't know what I mean by chatting).

I had been chatting with someone about Jesus and she said that she kinda haven't accepted Jesus as her Savior. I told her that either she have or she haven't, there is no "kinda" about it. I had also started an email to my basic training drill sergeant (DS), so I was going back and forth between EP and Yahoo; deja vu was in FULL effect!

I gave my fellow Epeep the basics for accepting Jesus as her Savior and she did. She was so excited and she told me that she could not wait to go to church on Sunday, so she could talk with the preacher. Shortly after my conversation with her, I finished up my email to my DS and I had to shut the computer down! I'm telling YOU, this deja vu experience was starting to scare me! 

It was a little after 4 a.m. when I drifted off to sleep; I left my cell phone on and a text message came through at 4:26 a.m. from TB, "Katt, I thought you were my friend. You dont commune with me anymore. I miss you dearly :-(" I texted TB back, "I am ur friend! U told me that the text messages were gonna show up on ur phone bill & that meant trouble. I do NOT want 2 cause u any trouble!"

Shortly after that, I texted my DS, "DS, I pray that I am NOT work'n ur nerves & make'n u leery about being friends with me! I am going THROUGH something right now & I don't know what....it JUST hit me....I gotta give this 2 Jesus 2 'cause it's 2 big 4 me 2 handle on my own!" After I sent the message, I had a flashback to when I was in the hospital on the Psych ward...

I remember being in the first room (I was in four different rooms the three weeks that I was there) and I kept saying, "One Spirit" and I felt that I was being monitored and the camera was in the vent that was in line with the bed. I thought about how, I could feel other people praying for me and those who were watching me and I was talking rapidly; saying whatever came to MY mind...

I looked at the vent in front of my bed and WITHIN, I thought, "Get on your knees and look at that vent and say what's on your mind," so I did. However, I started crying out to God and I told Him that I did NOT understand what was happening to me and I really wanted to know what was going on 'cause it feels like I've done ALL of this before and I don't know if I did it right the last time or what, but I want to do it right this time. I cried out to God about EVERYTHING that popped into my mind....

As I'm crying out, I asked God to PLEASE send me someone here on earth who could explain to me what I am going through. No sooner than I got it out my mouth, my cell phone went off and it was TB texting me back, "Silly, I mean on the internet. I don't c Phyllis Katt online. I paid with meat :-). I can call you in the am when I want." I texted TB back as I was feeling led to do, "PLEASE PRAY 4 US! I am going THROUGH something right now & I don't know what....I was cry'n out 2 God 2 have someone here on earth 2 tell me what's happen'n 2 me & then I get a text from U! So PRAY & call me when u can, THANK U!"

As I was THANKING GOD, I started to feel a "little" at ease, but I kept thinking about my DS and I do NOT know why! As I was drifting off to sleep, I received a text message from TB, "It is spiritual, but you are covered in the BLOOD OF JESUS." My eyes started getting misty, but I laid my cell phone down on the bed next to me and I closed my eyes and went to sleep. About 15 minutes later, I get another text from TB, "Im anointed, God used you to break my bondage, now the enemy is attackn your mind, he is dead and have no power over you. God is bringing you closer :-)" A little more time go by, and TB text me again, "I will call you shortly, I have prayed the FATHER, and He heard me, fear not, in JESUS NAME."

That message really calmed me down and just as I was about to drift off to sleep again, TB texts, "God love you no matter what you done, JESUS paid the price on the CROSS." I started thinking about the things I've done and my DS came to mind; within MINUTES of MY thoughts, I received, "Okay. If i can lend an ear, let me know." from my DS!

I could NOT think of just what to say to him, but when he let me know that he was at work, I knew that I couldn't text him the way that I wanted to, so I decided that I would NOT text him while he was at work, ESPECIALLY with the way I was feeling at the time! Shortly after the texting ceased between my DS and I, TB called me! TB told me personal things about himself and then he told me that he's a prophet; I was SHOCKED! Once he started telling me things that had been going on with ME and I KNEW that I did NOT tell him, I started to pay closer attention to what he was saying.

Long story even longer, I ended up in the Bible with him! The first scripture that he gave me was Psalm 82:6, I turned to it and started reading, "I have said, Ye are gods; and all of you are children of the most High." He went into detail about this scripture and some things that happened to him, which were some of the SAME things that were happening to ME!!!

He then had me go to Jeremiah 33:3, I turned to it and started reading, "Call unto me, and I will answer thee, and show thee great and mighty things, which thou knowest not." Things were still confusing to me and TB knew it...he'd say something and...I can NOT even explain it! He talked to me as if he was in the room watching everything I was doing....I glanced up at the vent!

TB then tells me that he's going to give me one last scripture to go to and after I've read it aloud (stressing aloud), he's not going to say anything else to me, he's going to hang up and I'll know what to do. He said that he wanted me to read the scriptures from beginning to end before I hung up. He then said, Isaiah 61:1-3, I turned to it and started reading, "The spirit of the Lord GOD is upon me;"  I started crying uncontrollably and TB, kept telling me to keep reading and I was crying and I started over and I cried all the way through to the end; it took a while for me to get through it, "The spirit of the Lord GOD is upon me; because the LORD hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; he hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound; To proclaim the acceptable year of the LORD, and the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all that mourn; To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified."

We hung up from with each other and I continued to read those three verses over and over again, crying like a sick baby the whole time. Then I started listening to 'within' and I sent a text message to Ma T, "Ma T, God is calling me 2 preach! Isaiah 61:1-3 PRAY! PLEASE PRAY!" I read the verses after sending that text to MA T and I was NOT crying! All I could say was, "THANK YOU, JESUS!" I read through the verse again, and then 'within' said to send a text, "My Army brothers & sisters God is calling me 2 preach! Isaiah 61:1-3 PRAY 4 ME!!!"

Let me say this, when I texted Ma T, I couldn't sort out my thoughts to where the text message would NOT be multiple pages, 'cause I kept thinking to say that God is calling me 2 preach but not like preachers of today, it's in a different way....I did NOT want to confuse Ma T so I cut it off where I did. The strange thing about that text message to my Army buddies, as I punched in "PRAY 4" US appeared after I typed in 4 and I looked at it and my mind went back to the hospital and at the same time I punched "ME!!!" and hit send however, it didn't stop the flashback.

One thing that I kept doing was talking to the other Vets who were inpatients as well and I was telling them that there is both a physical and a spiritual war going on. I told them that WE are veterans and we already know about the physical war and it's our responsibility to teach the civilians how to prepare themselves for the spiritual war. We have to teach them like we learned that when it comes to being in a physical war, you don't care what color someone is, how much money they have, what kind of car they drive, NONE of that is thought about when you are in a physical war with bullets and everything else flying all around. Every single time a vet came onto the Psych ward, I ended up talking with them, to the point that I was sharing the gospel with them. There was this one vet, name Fred, who was my "buddy!" It was something! Fred and I did NOT have to even talk to each other, he'd touch my shoulder or I'd touch his and we KNEW what each other was thinking! We PRAISE GOD in that hospital!!!

I started to feel better and was finally able to get some sleep. I woke up in enough time to take a shower, get dress and make my way to the bus stop in order to get to the hospital on time. When I went to see my therapist, I shared ALL of this with her and MORE! The Vet Center has moved to a little building behind VA Hospital and I had NEVER been in that building, however, I experienced deja vu as I was walking up to the bulding, but it was NOT as traumatic as it had previously been and I let my therapist know that as well. 

Once I finished telling her about her office and the various things on her wall, I looked at her and I told her, "I know that I have NOT been in this building before; I know that you guys just came to this building, and I don't know what's going on that I know all of this. I am no longer scared about what's going on 'cause there are people in my life now who listens to me and talk WITH me and NOT AT me!"

My therapist told me that she did NOT know what was happening to me. She told me that she stayed quiet and listened to me 'cause she was checking for signs of psychosis and there were none. She told me that she believes that I may feel that it's something Spiritual going on with me, but she could not say for sure because she did not know. She told me that she feels that I've been ministering to people on EP and she's able to tell this from the various conversations that I told her that I've had with people on EP. When she said that, Isaiah 61:1-2 came to me "the LORD hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek, he hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound: To proclaim the acceptable year of the LORD, and the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all that mourn;" I have been doing ALL of that right here in the Merry Little Land of EP with YOU!

 WE are REAL people who are making a difference in each others lives. So what, it's THROUGH cyberspace, I am actually connecting with people and doing these things and I am NOT the ONLY one! It FINALLY made sense being called to preach but NOT like the "pulpit" preachers! My therapist then shared with me that my Psychariatic Nurse is probably going to retire because she has been diagnosed with breast cancer and she's had several things to happen to her and she is to start chemotherapy next week. ME, listening within, told her to tell the PN the next time she talk to her, to remember what happened when I came to her and she helped me get admitted to the hospital. Before I could go any further, my therapist, got the biggest smile on her face and said, "Phyllis, she remembers and she talks about that often. She said that she knows it was something spiritual going on." She then told me that she can not give me the PN's address, but if I had something that I wanted to give to her, she'd make sure that the PN got it! YES, I'm putting together a few things for her...I'm listening WITHIN!

I met with the hospital chaplain as well! I had a few questions from some of my Epeeps that i had the chaplain to answer and then I proceeded telling him what was going on with me. We had to cut our meeting short, 'cause he had another meeting, so I'm going to get back with him next week!

Once I finally made it home and was preparing dinner, I got a call from a University; I'd told all of them last month that I was no longer interested in getting a degree. Then I asked if he was calling about the degree in Christian Studies. When he said, "Yes," I lost it and SHOUTED!!!  With all that had been going on, I kept thinking about that degree and I kept telling myself that I should have tried it instead of telling them I was no longer interested.

I told calmed myself down and told the guy that I was TOO EXCITED to hear from him and told him about me telling the other people who called that I was no longer interested. Then I told him about the mass that came up on my brain last year. He then shared with me that his Father-in-law had passed a few months ago, from a mass that was on his brain! He shared how the one thing that he was happy about was that his Father-in-law lived with his family and he for the last year in a half of his life and he knows what plans his Father-in-law had for his wife and their kids.

I shared some of EVERYTHING with this man! I went all the way back to being diagnosed with Ewing Sarcoma in 2002 and having a mustard seed of faith and I told him, in 2009, I went from a mustard seed to a FROG! When I said, "F-R-O-G, Fully Rely On God!" HE SHOUTED!!! He thanked me and told me that when he get home, he's going to tell his wife to FROG and just jump all over the place! He said that he was going to tell his church the same thing when he goes there! We talked for nearly an hour before we even talked about me enrolling to get the degree!!!

I'm telling YOU, it's like things are falling into place now! I have NO IDEA why things are happening the way they are. I am so MUCH better than what I was last year and it's LARGELY due to EP and the friendships that I have formed here! I will continue to be as supportive to YOU as YOU are to ME! THANK YOU for YOUR time and attention. I hope that this experience was able to do SOMETHING for YOU!

Take care, Phyllis      FROG ~ Fully Rely On God!

LetMeGo2 LetMeGo2
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9 Responses Feb 10, 2010

I had chills running down my body when I read this. I gotta personal message you. GOD IS GREAT!!!

Cmojlo, OMIGOSH! You do NOT know just how...WOW! I gotta personal message you, NOW!

midlifemadness, THANK YOU for your thoughtfulness!!! TAKE CARE!!!

Thank you! You are a source of inspiration and a true gift!!<br />
xoxo

midlifemadness, THANK YOU for taking time to read my story and letting go is so hard to do, BUT when things get the best of YOU, letting go becomes the EASIEST thing to do! YOU will get there, YOU WILL let go and let God! YOU will be at peace once YOU do! TAKE CARE!!!

wow.. what an inspirational story... Im so glad I stumbled upon it tonight.... God Bless You!!!<br />
I have been having some pretty difficult times and when you wrote "I gotta give this to Jesus cuz it's too big to handle on my own" .... that sentence stuck out to me.... I have been hearing and seeing it a lot lately..... I know it's what I need to do...<br />
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thanks for sharing this incredible story!!<br />
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Prayer, peace, hugs and love to You! xo

Ladies, THANK YOU for taking time to read this and for your comments! I am NOT going to give up, I am NOT going to walk away, I desire to do God's will IN and WITH my life! I thank you ladies for steping out on faith and sharing your feelings from God! TAKE CARE!!!

Yes, I totally understand all that you have said. Whenever I am praying for my circle I call out each one by name. When I come to my friend unshakable's name Isa. 61:1-3 runs across my mind like a Kyron and He has shown me she was also chosen, like you, for this purpose. Her writings and comments reflect this calling on EP. One of my favorite verses is Jer. 33:3 and I thought of it and said it aloud yesterday morning when my lungs seized up and I was sure it was my last breath. He, indeed, show me things that I didn't know (He makes sure this little Dr. understands she doesn't know everything!). He led me to answers I need ~ natural God given answers ~ to get well. I was fascinated by all that you wrote and look forward to reading more as God takes you on this marvelous journey He has set out for you. Bless you!

Sweetheart, I am sure it has a lot to do with friends you have made here, but the major part is FROG. Relying on God, you can do anything. God is fully the source for anything you need in life. I can't tell you the number of times God has stepped in and litterally saved my life. He loves us so much. We just have to accpet Him and learn to ask. I know you have by reading and this makes me so happy. Take care, I am blessed to have you as a friend andd a sister in Christ.