Emotionally And Physically Bullied

First year of college: There was this evil girl in college.I never talked to this girl and she never talked to me.She always used to stare at me creepily.Unfortunately her roll number was right after mine so she used to sit in the bench behind me during every examination.She used to kick my legs(it's difficult to explain she used to tease me using her legs in different ways) from behind during the examinations.The first time it happened I did not understand why she was behaving with me like that.She continued like that for every examination.Just imagine my pain and discomfort.Sooner I realized that this girl was jealous of me.I could clearly see the jealousy in her eyes.I don't know the reason of her jealousy may be it was because I was a brighter student than her or some other reason.There were also other toppers in our class.I believe she chose to harass me because  I was a very timid and sensitive girl and my roll number was right before hers.So everything was perfect for her to carry on her evil endeavors.I used to ignore her and suffered because I knew that if I complained she would harass me even more.I suffered in silence the whole first year.She had a chance to harass me only during examinations because other times we used to sit in different places.

Second year of college: New class room and new places.There were benches in three rows.Three persons used to sit on one bench.I used to sit on the first bench of the left row and the evil girl on the second bench of the middle row.Now she started bullying me emotionally also.She used to come to me during interval and say nasty things.She was very nasty.I ignored her.She made sure to irritate me every day with her actions.

A Huge Mistake: Here comes the I digged my own grave part.Apparently I was not happy with my place because there was too much glare on the board from the widow.I had difficulty seeing the board so I wanted to change my place.There was an extra place on the first bench of the middle row so I shifted to that place.To this day I still don't understand why I chose that bench knowing that the evil girl was sitting right behind that bench.Clearly she took full advantage of that.She also had friends who supported her actions.They were all against me.They wanted me to exchange my place with the evil girl's.I did not understand what the hell was going on.All these months the evil girl sat on the second bench now all of a sudden they have a problem with me sitting on the first bench.I said no.The harassment reached an all new level.Not only the  evil girl but also her friends started to bully me emotionally.The evil girl continued to hurt me with her legs.It affected my studies and concentration a LOT.I did not have a single friend.No one supported me except my parents.I used to cry everyday at home.Once I even cried in front of the bullies.I burst into tears.I could not take it anymore.I told my parents about it and they complained to the principal.But this did not change a thing.The harassment intensified and finally I gave up and sat on the second bench.The evil girl succeeded.She accomplished her sadistic mission of causing tremendous pain to me mentally, physically and emotionally.A few days later she stopped her nasty behavior because you know she eventually won.Evil won.
  This is not the first time I was bullied.I was a victim of emotional, verbal and physical bullying throughout school and college.All these things happened to me because I was a timid and sensitive person.I could not defend myself.I was an easy target.It's like fear is in my blood.These things affected me a lot.The things that happened to me may seem very trivial to a lot of people but the kind of things I faced were extremely difficult and emotionally draining for my kind of personality.I think no one can understand what I went through.I wish I was a very brave and intelligent person.I hate my personality.I wish I was not weak.
goldenbranches goldenbranches
26-30, F
May 14, 2012