Every Emotion All At Once....

19 years ago I experienced Love at first sight... What else could it have been? I was never one to say wow hes hot check him out unlike everyone else I knew... However when this guy walked in time stopped, I felt sick to my stomach, my hands got clammy I couldnt speak, all I could do was stare and wonder where this god came from? Maybe he felt my stare, he turned and looked at me came over and said hello. I ran into him again at my work, I immediately hid. I cant talk to this guy....He asked the owner of the store I worked at my name. We hooked up a few days later and I was a mess. I threw out all morals I had ever had, I would have done absolutely anything just to be in his presence. Of course he never knew this as I was always too afraid to speak around him. We saw each other periodically over the next few years. No one I dated ever compared to him and I felt like I was just waiting to spend forever with him. We ran into each other again and we were both with other people, we didnt speak even though I wanted to say hes only here because you aren't. He ended up moving a few hours away. A few years later an aquaintance knew him and had his number so I called him. I told him everything I had felt over the years, he was in shock, I had considered coming to visit him but he had just ended a relationship and I thought itd be best to let it be. I told him how I felt, there really wasnt anything else I could do but try to move on. I did and so did he, he got back together with the one and had 2 kids , they are no longer together, and I got married and had 2 kids of my own. 9 years after that first sighting, we found each other again, through mutal friends. Yes we live across the country from each other, which is good considering I'm still married. However there was never a day that went by that I didnt think of him and get that numbing ...very hard to explain, feeling only he has ever given me. We still talk occasionally, and I do my best to not run right into his arms. And even after all of this he still gives me that " i cant breathe " feeling. I hope to never lose him....
Firstsighter Firstsighter
31-35
1 Response Nov 26, 2012

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