Lost Our Baby Boy

2012 was suppose to be the best year of my life. I got engaged, got pregnant, got married then we lost our baby boy. Nov 9, 2012 - 10 weeks ago I gave birth to a baby boy at 33 weeks - 71/2 months. He was 4p 7oz and passed away 41mins after birth. Causes unknown. The day before I had an ultrasound and the baby was fine, I had a doc appt that day and we thought eveyrthing was fine. He was breech, I had a full delivery and delivered him breech having a episiotomy. I cried for 4 weeks as I started pulling myself together. Didn't work for 2 months, my husband took us to the Dominincan for xmas. My due date was Dec 27. It was a sad holiday season. I came back to work Jan 2, I had a hard time at first and last week seemed better but this week is 3 weeks in to work, I have had a hard week, I can not stop crying! I keep trying to be positive, getting out, doing things w friend and family, joining support groups, working out and doing feel activiites. I am doing the things required contiune helping me work through this even when I do not want to.

I am just so sad to have lost our 1st baby! I am 36, I waited so long ot meet the right person to marry and share my life w before starting a family.

I can't stop crying this week

Please offer me advise and encourgaement though this hard time with grief.

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Jan 17, 2013