Devour Me Once More(sigh)

I swear god freaking hates me. It's not a pitty or poor me.. well, the way I say it I guess it kinda sounds like it...

I just don't understand. I wanted to get all this **** off my chest so I can feel like half a real person again and it doesn't matter where I am at, EVERY FREAKING TIME... the computer stops responding on me. I just don't get it. I am the typr of person that believes everthing happens for a reason.. well if I am mad, It might take me a while... but I honestly don't know why this ALWAYS happens to me with just that one thing. That little thing that is just so important to me. Never not once goes through. I know it might sound a little dramatic, but I had finally gotten everything off of my chest. I was just a few words away from being done. Everything that I had no control over, and everything that made me look bad, my mistakes, my past. Uggh. The honesty in it was so extreamly invigorating. It was bits and pieces of things that I have told people before, but this.... this was EVERYTHING. Even the parts I haven't told before and it was important for me to just get it all out there and off my chest. It's a big burden. Now.... all gone. It's like I am not suppose to talk about it. I am just suppose to the it be this flesh eating disease that starts in my thoughts and devours every last bit of me. I don't get it. I will never have the strenght to tell the whole truth and nothing but the whole truth again. I am once again just going to let it win and let it consume me. When the message got deleted, it was like my hope got deleted along with it.
PurpleChucksOn PurpleChucksOn
22-25, F
1 Response Jan 14, 2013

If you need to talk to someone I am here to listen. So friend me and message me anytime you want and I will get back to you as soon as I log on next !! hope you are doing well now and hope you have a bloody good new year !! cheers Goodman72

Well, thank you very much Goodman72. I appreciate the fact that you would even click on the link and then take your time to write a response. It makes me feel good to know that there are complete strangers that would care enough to take time out of their day and read and reply. Thank you again. You have an awsome new year too!! PurpleChucksOn :]

always here !!! and it ain't a problem !! add me and chat every now and then !