I started to be friends with a gay man about 2 years ago. He referred to himself as my gay husband (I am straight and have been married for 22 years) and then called me his *** hag. I did not know what that meant and was offended at first but he stated it was a term of endearment. The connection we have is unbelievable. I can tell him anything and have!!!! I typically do not open up to people, but he has made it so easy and natural. I find myself wanting to spent all my free time with him. He has introduced me to the gay cultural and I have met some really cool people. I feel more welcome in the gay culture than I do in the straight culture. On top of that----he is so HOT!!!! He is not the typical person that would hang out with me. i feel very special when we go dancing, etc. I am so worried that I am going to mess up and he will not want to hang with me anymore. I have low self esteem and still wonder why someone that looks like him would hang out with someone like me.