I Am A New Hag.

I started to be friends with a gay man about 2 years ago.  He referred to himself as my gay husband (I am straight and have been married for 22 years) and then called me his *** hag.  I did not know what that meant and was offended at first but he stated it was a term of endearment. The connection we have is unbelievable.  I can tell him anything and have!!!!  I typically do not open up to people, but he has made it so easy and natural.  I find myself wanting to spent all my free time with him.  He has introduced me to the gay cultural and I have met some really cool people.  I feel more welcome in the gay culture than I do in the straight culture.   On top of that----he is so HOT!!!!  He is not the typical person that would hang out with me.  i feel very special when we go dancing, etc.  I am so worried that I am going to mess up and he will not want to hang with me anymore.  I have low self esteem and still wonder why someone that looks like him would hang out with someone like me.