Continued I'm Damaged

i dont hurt anyone physicaly, i'm too weak for that :P

i'm damaged becuase i have a hard time living, i dont have a reason to live, and i talk about it, about how i am only here becuase i dont want to hurt the ones i love by commiting suicide, so in essence i'm only living for them, and when i let ppl get too close i end up telling them things i have done or let them see the dark side of me that hates living soooo much, so then i'm hurting that person thats so close to me it hurts me even more creating a "snowball effect" cuasing me to hate myself more and hurting the ppl i care about more