I'm falling in love. And its scary to me because i dont think it can be the same way I loved my past love, the one I know I would still have if he wasn't watching me from heaven above, and I've had boyfriends here and there, but they ended before I even gave them a chance of survival. But, this one. I'm scared of losing him. I'm scared of waking up one day and he wont be in my world. He talks marriage and stuff. And it makes me the happiest girl alive, but it scares me because before my lost love past we were planning what would happen when he came back. Now, I can't get him out of my head, I think about him all the time, just looking at him I smile this stupid smile he can only give. I know, I'm ready to move on with my life because I can't just wait for someone up in heaven. I have him in my dreams and in my heart. I'm just scared of puting myself out there and he hurts me or just leaves. But, I hate not being by his side. Am I ready? Should I slow down and just be friends? I'm scared for my life. But I dont remember life before him. He put a smile in my face, the one where Kevin left broken. Kevin was my world. Will I always love Kevin, and be able to move on with my life? Would it be what he wanted? I always saw him in my life, kids, and marriage being happy. Even as a 16-17 year old. I knew I had found him. And I wasnt scared. Now, im 21 and im scared out of my mind. What do I do?
ForeverLoveGone ForeverLoveGone
22-25, F
Aug 16, 2014