I Turn Twenty Seven Very Soon

I turn 27 very soon. I'm not married nor have I ever been. I do not have any children of my own. I don't own a home. I don't have a degree. I was supposed to have some of those things by now. Especially the degree & possibly marriage. I feel very under-achieved. Can you FEEL under-achieved? lol. I just feel like my time is running out. I feel like I'll never get to do the stuff I want to bc I don't make the money I want to bc I have a ****** job.

I worry about (physically) aging a little. It's mostly vanity & I recognize that. I found little wrinkles on the side of my nose & sort of flipped. But on the upside my skin is finally starting to clear up & I don't have as many blackheads. I struggled w/ that my entire life.  Mostly I worry about sun damage that has already occurred. I do what I can now. I wear sunscreen everday on my face & anytime I go to the pool I slather on the SPF 30. But I already have the freckles. I think I may be more worried about my chest getting wrinkly than my face.

I also worry about my mind. I find myself forgetting things occasionally. I have always been forgetful but now I pay more attention bc I am afraid I am forgetting more.  

On the upside I have enjoyed becoming an adult. People listen when I talk. I do live w/ my boyfriend but it is in an apartment. I can still decorate it to my/our tastes though. I can finely have indoor dogs. I love my fur babies very, very much. Plus they are better than kids in some aspects, haha. And I do have plans to start back to school. I do have goals. I want to make a difference in someone's life through my work. I will do it, dammit.

So, getting older has its good & bad points. Everyone does it. It's just hard to do in a society that focuses so much on pretty, hot 22 yr olds w/ hard bodies & firm skin. I'll be ok, I'll age gracefully...or so I tell myself.

PS - on the upside, my boyfriend is 7 years older than me. haha! i'll always be younger than him & that makes me feel slightly more secure in our relationship. how sad is that?
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1 Response Jul 11, 2007

As I was reading your story I thought this woman sounds a like me. I bet she's a cancerian. Your fears were just the same as mine were before I met my husband. I have the brains to go to university but never mixed well and didn't have the confidence. I do not regret that now because I found my place in the world caring for others. I feel I have been able to make a difference to the lives of people with a learning disability. I was very lucky to do what I love and get paid for it. I think doing what you love/enjoy is the best way to meet people on your wave length and that is how I met my Hubby. I always thought I was getting left behind but that is just insecurity and people blosom at different rates. Try and stop worrying because you are a nice person and I am sure it will work out for you in time. x