I Fear I Have Lost HimHe IS the love of my life. after 3 and a half years he says he needs space and time alone, and that for now we must go our sperate ways. he says we might get back together and try again, maybe in afew months, maybe after a year. he says he still cares for me, and wants to be my friend. but at the time in his life, he needs to sort things out, get a stable job going , and work out what he really wants.
he told me a lasting relationship knows when to take a step back, and away from each other, but also to know when its right to be together'
i have a lot of mixed emotions. really struggling. hope we make it. im giving him respect, and space. i just hope he realises he wants us to be.
im taking it one day at a time, one month at a time. trying not to look so far into the future. if its meant to be it will be. im turning to prayer and my family. i want to pray for him , and us, and myself. i want him to feel better, clear his mind. i know hes a good man, always treated me well. so i really cant face the prospect of this being over. after so long- 3 and a half years.
im in love with him, and waiting. i hope i get through this, and can come on this site and say ' im happy' cause right now i am feeling every negative and emotional feeling possible.