It's Been A Long Time Since I Felt Connected

For most of my childhood and adolescence--even into my early adult years--I had this "hollow" feeling inside me. I didn't know what it was, I thought maybe it was loneliness, or lack of emotional connection. I was unhappy in my relationship and thought if I changed it, that hollow feeling would go away. It didn't. I found that I felt this way whether I was with or without people. Whether I was in or out of a happy relationship. Then...one day, I realized that feeling had left me. It was gone and I didn't even notice that it left. As I reflected back on my life and wondered what I had done to feel less hollow, I realized what it was. I had finally taken steps toward following my dream. I believe now that feeling IN ME (not suggesting here it's the same for you! :0] ) was about being true to myself and to my dreams and at least making a honest effort to achieve them. That has made all the difference for me.



I wish you peace, and friendship along the way!



XOXO

Well put, I am trying to get back to me that was not as introspective as now, I understand my responsibilities preclude many of my dreams. Your words helped me today. Be well.

Ive been there Lisa, I find that feeling arises when I loose focus of my purpose in this world and when my mindset is idle. Im married, but yet on occasions I feel alone as well. I commend you however, because you have buds who are available to assist. Sometimes I think it grand to have a BF, which is a missing piece in my life. Thanks for being true to yourself to pinpoint that deep seat need to fill the vacuum.

Thank you both for understanding. Even though I can't seem to find the words, I had to get it out somehow. ***hugs*** back to you.

This is why I think being friends in a situation like this is not a good idea. It just prolongs the pain.



I know the alone, empty feeling well. Sometimes I think that's what life is, trying to fill that empty feeling. Knowing that most other people are not going to fill it in a satisfying way. I'm ashamed of it though. I wish I could just feel good being alone.



But, your rant made sense to me.

You pose an interesting question in laying your heart out in the open. It's not easy having that experience of feeling alone, even though there are people around you. There's an emptiness that seems nothing or no one could fill. When you say "blah", there's nothing wrong with that. You've come to expect that certain people will hurt you and I'm truly sorry that happened to you. I can understand why the words are difficult to find because it's like you're stuck in a place of being numb. You've experienced disappointments and that too has not been helpful. I dunno, maybe I'm just ranting and making no sense, but if you want someone to talk to, feel free to send a message. :) wishing you the very best *hug*

You pose an interesting question in laying your heart out in the open. It's not easy having that experience of feeling alone, even though there are people around you. There's an emptiness that seems nothing or no one could fill. When you say "blah", there's nothing wrong with that. You've come to expect that certain people will hurt you and I'm truly sorry that happened to you. I can understand why the words are difficult to find because it's like you're stuck in a place of being numb. You've experienced disappointments and that too has not been helpful. I dunno, maybe I'm just ranting and making no sense, but if you want someone to talk to, feel free to send a message. :) wishing you the very best *hug*