I'm Here Where Are You?

I wonder about you and what is going on with you in your life.  I want to talk to you, I want you to TXT me as much as your friends but you don't, I only get to talk to you 3 times a day if I'm lucky, maybe once in the morning or before you go to work and then one more time to say good night. 

You called today and wanted to talk to me because we haven't talked all week but the kid was hungry so you said that you would talk to me later, then it was time for bed.

The only times you call is when you want to know something.  Like the price of something or if I can call or pay a bill.

Yet you talk to your friends all day with the TXTing.  I think that since I'm there that you can talk to me when you feel like it, if you feel like it.

I feel like I'm less important to you than the others in your life.  I go to give you a hug and a kiss and it is almost like you do it out of obligation.  If you feel that way then don't give me a hug not even a kiss. 

I want to touch you and give you a hug, massage, hold your hand, and make love to you, but you don't seem that you want to.

Yes I have left you alone for quite a while I travel for my job, but if I can find another job that pays what this one does I would quit and move to a different job but you seem that you want me gone.

How can I not feel that you are having an affair even though you say that you are not and that I don't trust you.

If I do try to call you or talk to you and even txt, you think that there is something wrong and that I'm not trusting you and I have confidence  problems and poor self esteem.  Why do you think that?

You say you want your space, to be able to be alone for a time so you can collect you thoughts.  That is fine that you want the quiet. 

I love you and want you to only have the best, maybe that is someone else for you.

I work towards the time that we can be together again, I hope that you can feel some emotional connection between us again when we make love.

I am here and waiting for you.



mtvlm mtvlm
41-45, M
4 Responses Mar 9, 2009

Your woman is a fool, look for another

Two years later I have divorced this "woman" and found someone really awesome... Thanks for the comments...

If I could find another job that keeps me home I would change. Hopefully I won't have to travel forever.

I will when I get home in 2 weeks.

Wow - that is sad, and beautiful. I wish my hubby would have said that to me. Talk to her - seriously.