Years Behind Schedule

This is my first story.  New Member!

I didn't always feel alone like I do now.  About eight or nine years ago I entered college and made many friends my age.  I developed strong bonds with them and it made me very happy.  The second year in college I had my first relationship and it lasted nearly five years.  During these five years I put so much attention on my girlfriend that I started to lose my friends without my acknowledgement.  With the relationship I was very happy and nothing else mattered to the point that my grades even started to suffer.  I became unsure with what I wanted to do with my life, but I knew that everyhting was alright, due to having the relationship.  We got engaged about five years into the relationship and I thought that my life was becoming complete.  I just needed to finish college and start teaching piano lessons to help support the future family. 

Then came the shock of a lifetime.  She was interested in somebody else, only two weeks into the engagement.  The relationship was done and due to my actions in the relationship I lost all of my friends.  I dropped out of college, because the only reason that I was going to become a piano teacher was to support her and she like the idea.  I tried to contact past friends on the internet, but most of them had left the area and started their own families.

After all of this, I decided to try singing and joined with the local symphony chorus.  I had sung for about six years previously in the college choir.  The success of this caused me to rethink dropping out.  I only ended up taking a semester off and went back to college to persue a vocal performance degree.

It has been a year and a half since I have started this degree.  I am enjoying it a lot, but I feel entirely out of place.  I am 27 years old and I am in classes with a bunch of 18 - 21 year olds.  Everyone looks at me as the old man.  This makes it awkward to make friends or find a girlfriend.  The people that I meet that are my age aren't interested, because I am 27 and still attending undergrad.  Due to all of this I find myself, even with my success in school, feeling very alone.  I know that I need to just stick it out until I graduate after this coming school year, but feeling alone is painful.

If anyone has any thoughts about this, it would be awesome!  Thanks for reading.
Pianowerd Pianowerd
26-30, M
1 Response Jul 28, 2010

Feeling alone has been a pain for me once. But now i have learned to adjust or even to enjoy it. I write stories, poetry or whatever comes to me in my loneliness. I observe you are good in music, you can utilize your creativity to fight loneliness and it will be productive too. Best of luck.