I Wish...

I wish someone knew about my tears at night
that I wake up sweating and screaming in fright.
I wish someone knew I am a bulimic girl
that every chance I get, I bend over and hurl.
I wish someone knew I am addicted to pain
that I hurt myself daily; "I'm okay!" I claim.
I wish someone knew that I still pop pills
that I crave the feeling of being high and ill.
I wish someone knew that I've lost 30 pounds
that I starve and I run but don't make a sound.
I wish someone knew I am abused every day
sexually, physically; in any possible way.
I wish someone knew I wish I were a boy
that if I were, I wouldn't be used as some toy.
I wish someone knew about the demons from my dreams
that they've escaped my mind; but only as teams.
I wish someone knew how much I miss my best friend
that I wish I were the one hit and dead at the end.
I wish someone knew that I'm ready to give up
that have nothing left and no one to refill my cup.
dannilongbottom dannilongbottom
18-21, F
Sep 24, 2012