Because I Am...

I spend a lot of time by myself.  I'm a stay at home wife, no kids.  During the day I'm at home alone, with my dogs and cat to keep me company.  When my husband gets home we spend a few hours together, but unless it's the weekend it's not for long.

After he goes to bed, I'm alone again.  I have trouble sleeping so I spend a lot of time on the computer.  Due to a few very bad internet friends I've (up until now) not tried to meet anyone online for some time. 

I have a few r/l friends, but most of them have careers or children so they don't have a lot of time to visit or hang out. 

I know there are others like me out there, but I feel so isolated and lonely.  I'm also a bit proud though, and don't like to admit to people that I feel that way.

I'm hoping to change these feelings and meet new people.  I feel it's not healthy for me to feel so lonely all the time and though I don't quite know at the moment how I'm going to do that, I want to try.  I'm extremely shy so it adds to the anxiety of meeting new people.
chaotic chaotic
26-30, F
2 Responses May 30, 2007

Have you ever tried joining some type of club like a book club or something. My sister is a stay at home mom and has the same complaint. She joined a gym and have met other women who are in the same boat. They meet at the gym twice a week and lunch. After reading your story, I now see why she calls me 20 times a day.

I know the feeling very well. Although you have had bad luck with internet friends remember there are always good honest ones out there. For whatever reasons some people need to communicate at the moment just thru their computer. <br />
I don't know how to deal with this feeling either but when I write a story I hope I can be as honest as you were. Hats off to you and SMILE!