I Feel Like I Am Dying

I have been with my girlfriend now for 8 years and I think and know that its coming to an end.  I feel completely lost, my heart is constantly hurting and I don't know how to make it stop.  She is the love of my life and now that she is running away from me and avoiding me I feel like I am missing something so deep in my heart that I don't know what to do.  She is/was my first serious relationship and I don't want to lose her, I don't want to lose her.  I can't stop worrying and crying and frankly if I believed there was a heaven I would probably off myself.  So here I am stuck in a perpetual hell with frankly no way out that I can see.  I immediately started calling counselors and I have an appointment in the morning but I just want to feel the way I felt when I held her in bed and when she would look at me with those eyes that looked as if I had just done a magic trick.  I'm here and hurting and I really wish there was someone I could talk to right now instead of tomorrow.  I don't know what i'm doing here.

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1 Response Mar 23, 2009

classically - too much familiarity breeds contempt. I had too had these kinds of issues in life. The best thing which I learnt in life is no-one understands the depth of emotions of yours as you and there is no necessity to pour your depth of emotions more than what is necessary. Keep it with you and people become inquisitive and start liking you ! you will be loved back !