Confused...

My love died... I am broken... I lost everythin... Its been days and months ... but  I am not interested in doing anythin... Actually i am doin my major... Now, I am going to discontinue this course.... I don't know how i would live.. but i am not interested in doin anythin... i would jus sit around and pass my time to escape my thoughts... cos i shouuld nt cry as i have promised her...... The thought of suicide comes into my mind every sec.. but i don't want to make my parents cry... I jus wanna sit alone all day long which i dont want to do... BUt i am left with no other choice........

myhappyending myhappyending
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5 Responses Aug 3, 2010

i feel sorry for you xuji... but i am really not in a situation to say anything..

it feels like i am forced to do something i don't want to... I don't wanna be alone.. i don't wanna cry... i still can't believe that she's gone..... though there are happy as well as sad memories of her... i always wanted her, i never wanted this memories(though i am left with these)....

i have the same situation right now, though i am carrying a baby now i still think of having a suicide because i don't think i can carry on with my life. When i reminisce about how i loved him i cried and now im carrying his baby it hurts me more. So i'm battling with this thing alone and trying to be strong...

He.llo... Let me start by saying that I am sorry for your Loss....When my Dad died I was in bad shape. I felt there was no point to life. You need too look back and see all the things you did with her. In time things will get better,You need to recall everything about her the good the bad alike..just rembember the person you cared about. There are alot of people out there you can talk to. Please talk to someone before you decide to do anything...Please let me be your friend. I am hear if you need someone...Anto815

remember why she/he loved you, and keep your promise of being yourself. You have great memories that will last all your life, treasure them and keep the smile each day, in memory of the love one.<br />
Besides, we all die, so cherish what you have and do today.