Post
Experience Project iOS Android Apps | Download EP for your Mobile Device

Can I Be Fixed?

I ask myself that all of the time. How can I fix what is broken? What is it exactly that is broken in the first place? Something is not right inside of me. I'm not the smartest person in the world, but I know I'm not an idiot. If one of my friends came to me with the same problem, I could think of about 20 things to say to them. Logical explanations that would make sense to anyone..... But at the end of the day, I'm a slave to my own emotions. But how do you face something you're not even sure of? Why does the "power of postive thinking" not work for me in this situation? Why am I letting one person rule my realm of thought? What can I do? How can I move forward? My own selfishness is making me feel this way, but I don't know any other way to be now....I want something...I want it so badly...but I can't even begin to know how to obtain what I want? I thought of ways, and it is impossible... So, even though I seem to function as a normal person, whatever the hell that even means, I am broken on the inside. But no one seems to understand me...I mean really understand. Talking to people actually makes me feel worse....I don't know. I wish I could stop this feeling...
StarLightShineBright StarLightShineBright 22-25, F 3 Responses May 31, 2012

Your Response

Cancel

Hi...yes..you are not the only one my friend...I know eactly how you feel...its hard to bear...But we should try to let those feelings go..my friend ,else its hard to focus on other things of life that is waiting for us.Yes i know, again...its hard to focus on other things when we have a heavy burden in our heart....but we should try to let go ..those feelings......only then we can enjoy those breezes blowing out of our window..waiting for us...

you're not alone on this one. I too feel very broken inside. I am unable to love, unable to care, unable to feel like a 'normal' person. It's like if I had the chance to be 'erased' in this world, I would gladly take that chance.

thanks for reading my story...i hope it's not mean to say i'm glad that there are other people that feel the same way that i do...it makes me feel a little less alone...but i know very well how you feel...sometimes i wish i could sleep forever...i don't dream often at all, so the only time my mind feels at ease is when i sleep because i don't feel anything...i don't think about how empty my life is...i would also take that chance if i had it...

i understand how you feel im the same way after all of the things that happen in my life i dont feel anything anymore. i dont know who i am or what to do with my life i feel like im waiting for something to happen to fix all my problems but it never comes. the only time i feel somewhat ok is when im with my friends but i pushed almost everyone and everything out of my life. im here for you of you ever need someone to vent to. hang in there i know how hard it is to feel the way you do know

exactly...it's like you think something is going to happen to make everything better...and you try to believe in that...but it never comes...and then..you feel worse because you know in reality...you don't have it that bad...but yet, you still feel this void....i am also alone....i also pushed people away because i would rather not be close so i won't get hurt when they leave...and they all eventually leave....its depressing....i would have never thought i would become the lonely, sad person i am today,...but because of the things i went through....i don't know what i means anymore....it's like there are moments of happiness...but hours of misery...

thank you for offerring to listen. it means more than you think. i feel better knowing there are others that really feel the same, and really listen to what i'm saying...thanks