Im Always Broken Inside

Long story but just a few points of why I feel broken. I was molested at 7. Raped in my twentys. Dont know my father. My mother beat me alot growing up. My brother is crazy for real. My son was in a accident with hus cousin five years ago. My son suffered two broken legs in three parts his cousin DOA. So yea and Im over weight so yea I feel broken and I try to be happy but Im not. I fake it sometimes so people can stop asking whats wrong.