Am I Not Good Enough??

After almost 12 years of marrige my husband decides to come clean and tell me he thinks he loves someone else, he can't stop thinking about her, he swears up and down that nothing has ever happend and he claims to feel really bad about it, he doesnt understand why he has these feelings. He says he loves me too, and doesnt want to lose our marrige. So much is running thru my head i can't think straight part me is thinking, we can deal with this make things right, but the other part is telling me to just leave. He is the love of my life, I dont believe that he ever really loved me as much as i did him.
detachedmode detachedmode
36-40, F
2 Responses Jan 14, 2013

He's not good enough. He doesn't deserve your love.

Its not nearly 12 years of marriage, but almost 2 years ago I thought I had everything. The perfect boyfriend, a good job, a great apartment, we were both in school getting bachelors degrees and getting to an age where we were thinking about marriage and had talked about it several times. We lived together and one day he looked at me, told me it was over and that he was in love with his best friends girlfriend. He moved out that week, took our dog and pursued a relationship with her. I had never felt so used and broken as I did when he left me, I couldn't help but think it was all fake, and that I was second best the whole time, but I knew that wasn't the case. Less than 6 months later though she had cheated on him multiple times and then left him for someone else. I wish I could say I had some epiphany and came out stronger and that he got what he deserved, but I don't feel that way. I just think that sometimes, somethings just don't make any sense and no matter what you do they never will. Stay strong though, things will fall into place exactly the way they are supposed to.