There Is Nothing Left Inside...

I didn't always feel this way but I suffered a loss in 2005 and ever since then nothing much matters.  I've battled depression for about 12 years but with the more time that passes the less I seem able to cope with things.  Well that's not really right - I don't really have to cope because I don't really care about much anymore.  My heart and life are so empty and it feels like my soul is broken.  The one mainstay in my life has always been my animals but now they just seem like another chore that I have to take care of.  I don't abuse or neglect them but the joy that they have always brought is missing.  My family is pretty much in the crapper.   I am so tired of being tired all the time.  I am so tired of fighting every day life.  I just don't have anymore energy for anything anymore.  And I HATE being this way!!!

MTBunnyLuv MTBunnyLuv
46-50, F
1 Response Feb 11, 2009

I feel the same way....everyday feels like a fight just to exist ...and you wonder what is the purpose to keep fighting if all you are doing is existing.