Broken Angel....

Everyone says I am one of the most loving caring understand people they know. They say I am an Angel that has come into their life. They say that I am a blessing, that despite what my mother says, I am NOT a mistake....Well what they don't know is that I am broken right now, BECAUSE of my Mother. I feel so broken on the inside, so hurt , so lost right about now. I may be an Angel to some, but right now. I just feel like a Broken Angel right about now.....

I feel like everything that I have worked to, getting out of my Dark place has come back to BITE me in the ***....it seems like everything that I have tried to do to stay strong was all for nothing, because now I just find my self back in that dark place, not having much of a reason to hang on anymore....

Angel-Writer....

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1 Response Sep 5, 2009

I'm sorry your so sad, I have not much room to talk nor to help. I am in a pretty lame place too, I know what you mean feeling like it is so hard to hold on. I used to try to help others, but the more I listened to their problems the more I withdrew from exposing my own. Until one day I looked around and saw nobody was by my side anylonger. I don't know how old you are angel, but as you grow you will fly higher and higher above your mother. One day you will see a picture of who she is and you will hopefully see her reasons for treating you so badly. My parents treated me bad my whole life, when I was 19 to 21 I was deeply hurt. Then something changed, I guess I stopped looking for my parents approval for so much, unfortunately I accidently started seeking my sister and friends approval. Crappy thing for me to do I guess. One day I hope to only need my own approval. I used to be that way, couldn't tell ya what happened. But I can say I was happy for a moment while that lasted. Good luck darling your mother would be lucky to recognize that she has such a treasure trying to learn to love herself, and she would be that much more lucky to be the one person to help you. Much love :-)