Alone

I feel completely alone and isolated. I have no close friends as of right now. Everytime I thought I have had a true connection with someone it eventually faded away. I feel like my life has no meaning, no purpose and that I am a waste as a human being. I feel like I contribute nothing and am completely hollow inside and may never be worthy of living or life itself. I just wish I could for once truely connect with someone that would understand me and not hurt me more than I already hurt inside. I am a grown woman that has never truly felt like I have friends to call my own...Am I just a mistake? I sometimes wonder why I am even here. I wonder why I am so weak and if it will ever get better.